Why did i get an apple email in some asian language

And moving through it requires flexibility, self-compassion and reimagining what it means to be Chinese in America - our identities as something dynamic, not a box you check on a form. It's left me with a feeling that I'm not Chinese enough.ДЄmelia says there's a word for what I'm feeling - racial imposter syndrome. And this erasure of him, of who I fully am and the language of his family, really hurts. I was hoping the Chinese for you is just to give yourself that opportunity to embrace your other racial half.Д® KWONG: I mean, my birth certificate says I'm white, even though my father was standing right there in the delivery room. Chinese - it's like I register Emily is learning Chinese.Д® KWONG: Maybe if I get better at the pronunciation, one day, it will, like.Д¬ KWONG: Our words will always be English, Emily. When I say something like, wo ai ni - I love you - do you internalize that sentence? If I were to say, Dad, I love you, in English.Д¬ KWONG: In English, of course, it resonates. Meanwhile, my dad isn't as sentimental about this as I am. UNIDENTIFIED PERSON #2: (Speaking Mandarin Chinese).ДЄnd I've decided that any shame I might feel about imperfect pronunciation, fumbles with grammar is nothing compared to the shame I felt about not knowing the language at all the shame I feel as my older relatives rattle off dim sum dishes and I stare down the menu pictures, feeling like a fraud within my own identity, missing something I never had in the first place. It has caused some linguists to call the U.S. TSENG: You know, we're a very multilingual country and always have been, but we are - have not historically been supportive of other languages, either through sort of active suppression or through just sort of a lack of interest in supporting them.Д® KWONG: Amelia says that lack of support is rooted in things like nationalism and xenophobia. Gaining a foothold in America meant losing the first language my dad's ever known.ДЄMELIA TSENG: When you lose your language, it's almost a form of violence if it's taken from you, right?Д® KWONG: Amelia Tseng is a sociolinguist at American University, someone who studies how languages shift across immigrant generations. When you say need for survival, what do you mean?Д¬ KWONG: Meaning to integrate into society - you have to integrate, otherwise you're, you know, going to be really in a terrible place.Д® KWONG: I get what my dad is saying, but assimilation has a cost. That's a big decision for a little kid to make, you know?Д¬ KWONG: Well, my need for, I felt - for survival was greater than my hurt.Д® KWONG: Yeah. He says his mom, my grandma Hui, spent hours drilling him, and he didn't feel like he had a choice.Д¬ KWONG: I realized I had to engage in a different world, a world of English, so, you know, I should just be pragmatic, let go and go with English.Д® KWONG: Yeah.

And his parents, my grandparents, didn't want him to fall behind in school.Д¬ KWONG: I was then given, you know, orders to start speaking English for my own emotional and social survival, so I didn't hear Chinese again.Д® KWONG: The transition to English was difficult. He was in kindergarten and really struggling to communicate with his teacher, with his classmates, using the little English that he knew.

My father stopped speaking Mandarin when he was 5 years old. But when you hear your native language, it's a reminder of, you're safe.Д® KWONG: But here's the thing. In a world of non-Chinese when I was outside, it was anxiety and confusion and not knowing what was really being said and just clinging a little harder. Surrounded by people conversing and bartering and going about their day in Chinese.Д¬ KWONG: It was the only thing I understood. I was born in New York City.Д® KWONG: Growing up, Dad remembers tagging alongside his grandmothers as they did the shopping in Chinatown.Д¬ KWONG: I just went into fish markets, meat markets, vegetable markets.Д® KWONG. I've wanted to ask my dad about our language for a lifetime.Д¬ KWONG: My name is Christopher Kwong. Here's Emily in conversation with her dad.Д® KWONG: So yeah, this is a conversation I've actually wanted to have with you for a long time.Д® KWONG: That is an understatement.

Last year, at age 30, she began to learn Chinese for the very first time and unpacked why she is so determined to learn it in the first place. KELLY: Emily is Chinese American on her father's side. UNIDENTIFIED PERSON #1: (Speaking Mandarin Chinese). More than 1 billion people in the world speak Mandarin Chinese, and NPR's Emily Kwong wants to join that group.Д®MILY KWONG, BYLINE: OK, how do you say this?

Why did i get an apple email in some asian language